This day 1 was a lot easier than the first day 1. The hardboiled egg was still gross though. Its just a texture thing. I gave it another honest shot though. So I'm back to plain ol scrambled eggs. Today was a relatively easy day. Eggs and baby orange for breakfast. Watermelon for lunch. Gym after work. And steak for dinner. I guess its easy since I've already done it before.
I started taking the Diruex again too. Just in case there happens to be anymore water weight floating around in there. I also got taped again today. Down 1 more inch. 3inches to go. The inch came off my waist, now if I could only get my stubborn hips to shed some inches. I think if my ass got a little smaller I'd be able to wear a lot more of my clothes lol.
I actually went to the gym after work, on my own, today. No mandatory obligations, but the obligation to myself to lose this damn weight. I have temporarily solved my ipod problem too. I just listen to Sprint Radio on my phone. The Indie/Alternative Channel. Pretty great stuff. I didn't think it would be that great, but it actually had a good song line-up. So now I have something to escape with when I'm in the sauna. Something to take my mind away from thinking about how friggen hot and stuffy it is in there. Another bright side is that since everyone has pretty much already done their weigh-ins the gym is back to not being so crowded with all the people trying to shed last minute poundage. I tried out the bike today too. Just to see if I could do that for the PRT instead of the Elliptical. The resistance on the elliptical is a little much for my leg right now. I'd have to have it on like 10 or higher for the full 12 minutes in order to burn the right amount of calories. Today I kept the resistance between 7 and 10 for the 12 minutes on the bike and only half assed it to burn 81 calories and I passed. So bike it is then. Lol. I can't wait t be done with all this babying my leg crap though. I hate the pain. I know its going to get way worse once the cold really sets it. So not looking forward to that.
The diet continues tomorrow. Feeling pretty good about today, and about my decision to start over. We'll see if I made any progress with the morning weigh in. Until then....
Monday, October 18, 2010
Sunday, October 17, 2010
Starting Over....
So I haven't updated in a while, now is as good a time as any. I have hit a plateau in my weight loss. A plateau that I do not have time for. I have about a week left to lose the last 7 pounds or 4 in to reach my weight loss goal for the navy. I was almost done with the diet when I realized that my weight loss had all but come to a halt. I have been very pleased with the results from this diet until now. Week 4 just seemed like a lot of food with little to no structure like the weeks before. I went back through the blog and saw that the bulk of my weight loss came during the first 2 weeks. So I had to make a choice. I have decided to break from the diet and start over. So yesterday and today I ate normally to get my body thinking it is back to regular eating habits. I gave it everything it was missing in the previous weeks. Sugar, dairy, carbs, and processed foods. I didn't totally pig out of course but I did at least reintroduce those items to my body. So tomorrow I will start back from day one. I am hoping that by starting fresh, it will 1) shock my body back into weight loss, especially coming off 2 days of eating normal foods, and 2) give me that last little push I need to reach my goal.
I am going to try to stay with the eggs this time though. Even though I hate them, it must be done. I bought some pre-cooked and peeled hard boiled eggs by Eggland's Best so I'll see if maybe those taste better than the ones I cooked. I don't know how I could ruin a hard boiled egg but I think I found a way to. I bought another cute little watermelon and some baby oranges as well.
The real test comes with me going to the gym. My goal is 2 times a day. Once in the morning, and once after work. And if I miss the morning then once before bed. The mandatory 3 days a week PT I was going to after work has been postponed until November 1st so I will be doing all of this on my own. I believe I can do it though. Especially with the results I have been seeing as of late.
I was looking a t some pictures that were taken against my will a few months ago, and wow. I already don't like pictures, but I really don't like pictures when I look like a damn prized cow. I do plan on taking a few progress pictures in the clothes I was wearing in the chunky jen photos. The clothes fit me way better now than they did in those pictures. Sucks that those clothes were the only ones that fit, but really didn't fit they way they should either. I also got into a few shirts that I wasn't able to wear a few months ago. I have this plaid button down 1/4 sleeve shirt that I just love but haven't been able to wear because it was too tight on my arms, like to the point where I couldn't really move them and had to struggle to take it off. I could button it but I looked like I was going to hulk out of it because there was so much behind the buttons. I couldn't wear it unbuttoned because then I'd have my belly pudge poking out, which is just unattractive. So today, just for fun, I decided to try it on. And it fit like it was supposed to. Fit my arms perfect, buttoned with not problem, hung well when buttoned, and most importantly no belly pudge when left unbuttoned. I didn't end up wearing the shirt because it was a little chilly out but it did feel good to add another article of clothing to my wear pile.
I have complete faith in myself at this point in the game. I have my eyes on the prize and I know what I need to do. I also plan on going halloween costume shopping sometime this week so we'll see if I can lose a few pounds before doing that. I have a few costumes in mind. It pretty much boils down to a Princess Leia costume or a Robin Costume lol. Either way I'll be a nerd.
Tomorrow starts another beginning, hopefully the last beginning in my weight loss quest. 7 more pounds. Wish me luck....
I am going to try to stay with the eggs this time though. Even though I hate them, it must be done. I bought some pre-cooked and peeled hard boiled eggs by Eggland's Best so I'll see if maybe those taste better than the ones I cooked. I don't know how I could ruin a hard boiled egg but I think I found a way to. I bought another cute little watermelon and some baby oranges as well.
The real test comes with me going to the gym. My goal is 2 times a day. Once in the morning, and once after work. And if I miss the morning then once before bed. The mandatory 3 days a week PT I was going to after work has been postponed until November 1st so I will be doing all of this on my own. I believe I can do it though. Especially with the results I have been seeing as of late.
I was looking a t some pictures that were taken against my will a few months ago, and wow. I already don't like pictures, but I really don't like pictures when I look like a damn prized cow. I do plan on taking a few progress pictures in the clothes I was wearing in the chunky jen photos. The clothes fit me way better now than they did in those pictures. Sucks that those clothes were the only ones that fit, but really didn't fit they way they should either. I also got into a few shirts that I wasn't able to wear a few months ago. I have this plaid button down 1/4 sleeve shirt that I just love but haven't been able to wear because it was too tight on my arms, like to the point where I couldn't really move them and had to struggle to take it off. I could button it but I looked like I was going to hulk out of it because there was so much behind the buttons. I couldn't wear it unbuttoned because then I'd have my belly pudge poking out, which is just unattractive. So today, just for fun, I decided to try it on. And it fit like it was supposed to. Fit my arms perfect, buttoned with not problem, hung well when buttoned, and most importantly no belly pudge when left unbuttoned. I didn't end up wearing the shirt because it was a little chilly out but it did feel good to add another article of clothing to my wear pile.
I have complete faith in myself at this point in the game. I have my eyes on the prize and I know what I need to do. I also plan on going halloween costume shopping sometime this week so we'll see if I can lose a few pounds before doing that. I have a few costumes in mind. It pretty much boils down to a Princess Leia costume or a Robin Costume lol. Either way I'll be a nerd.
Tomorrow starts another beginning, hopefully the last beginning in my weight loss quest. 7 more pounds. Wish me luck....
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
Day 21: Will never look at apples the same...
All Day Long: One kind of fruit is permitted and you have to chose one of the following (apples, pears, plums, apricots & guava) for two consecutive days in any quantity and at any time.
So 2nd and last day of just apples. I am so hungry its not even funny lol. ok well I guess if I say lol then it is funny. but seriously, I'm hungry. An apple a day may keep the doctor away, but apples for 2 days....blahhhh I really hope I never have to do that again. I think I might be going on an apple strike a long with my egg strike for a while lol.
Today was also my rest day from the gym. Back at it tomorrow. Its really lame going to the gym without an ipod though. ugh. I just watch sportscenter when i'm on the treadmill or elliptical. But then I have to suffer through commercials. I would usually listen to my ipod and then plug my headphones in when there was a story or recap that I wanted to watch. What really sucks is being in the sauna with no music to escape with. Its just you laying in a hot ass room, thinking about how hot it is, and how long you've been in there. I need to find a solution and fast. I'm dying without my ipod.
In other news, I weighed 163 this morning, so another 3 lbs down, bringing my total up to 16. I am only 7 lbs off. I have about 12 days left to lose the last 7. I'm aiming for at least another 10 down by weigh ins. I think I can do it. :)
So 2nd and last day of just apples. I am so hungry its not even funny lol. ok well I guess if I say lol then it is funny. but seriously, I'm hungry. An apple a day may keep the doctor away, but apples for 2 days....blahhhh I really hope I never have to do that again. I think I might be going on an apple strike a long with my egg strike for a while lol.
Today was also my rest day from the gym. Back at it tomorrow. Its really lame going to the gym without an ipod though. ugh. I just watch sportscenter when i'm on the treadmill or elliptical. But then I have to suffer through commercials. I would usually listen to my ipod and then plug my headphones in when there was a story or recap that I wanted to watch. What really sucks is being in the sauna with no music to escape with. Its just you laying in a hot ass room, thinking about how hot it is, and how long you've been in there. I need to find a solution and fast. I'm dying without my ipod.
In other news, I weighed 163 this morning, so another 3 lbs down, bringing my total up to 16. I am only 7 lbs off. I have about 12 days left to lose the last 7. I'm aiming for at least another 10 down by weigh ins. I think I can do it. :)
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
Day 20: Good News on the Progress Channel
All Day Long: One kind of fruit is permitted and you have to chose one of the following (apples, pears, plums, apricots & guava) for two consecutive days in any quantity and at any time.
Let me just start off by saying that this day sucks donkey balls. Only apples all day. Don't get me wrong, I like apples...but all day? Not a fan. I was so hungry. It was literally like eating a bag of appley water. I wish I had an apple tree right now so I could just keep eating them. But they have to be fresh, granny smith, crisp, and have no bruises. But on to the real news.
We had a mock PRT at FEP today. Weigh in, pushups/sit-ups, and run. So this morning I weighed 166, the same weight I've been for the past 4 days or so. At PT, about 1:30, I weight 165. You're usually at your lightest in the morning, so judging by that tomorrow I should weigh less. Hopefully anyways. So even though 165 is an accomplishment and the trainer noticed that I was considerabley less than last weigh in, it is still not withing standards so I had to be taped. My last taping had me at 12.5 in neck, 33 in waist, and 45 in hips. And after navy calculations, comes to 42% body fat. Today I measured at 13 in neck (he rounded up for me this time.), 30 in waist, and 44 in hips. Totaling 36% body fat. Standards for body fat for my height is max 32% so I'm still off, but only by 4% which translates into 4 in. I'm still technically not within standards but I still have 2 weeks to get there, and the results are coming. Dropping inches is harder for me than the weight so I was very very pleased to see some progress there. And while I like my butt and don't want it to go away, I do want the remaining 4 inches to come off my hips. And maybe 2 or 3 from my waist area. I am getting closer and closer to my goal. And while I would prefer not to have to be taped, it would be nice to know that in the event that the weigh-in didn't come up correctly that I'll be able to tape. Or that even though I'm withing standards weight wise, by body fat percentage is where it should be too.
So after the gym I came home and showered. So for shits and giggles, I weighed myself again, 164 this time. I'm very anxious to see what my morning total will be. After that I was feeling pretty good about myself, and needed to find something to wear to this interview tomorrow, so i decided to try on some of my dresses and jeans. I usually experience a lot of anxiety and frustration when trying to find something to wear, but not today. I was a bit nervous about the dresses though. Because of their cuts and my size, whenever I would put them on they sort of looked like maternity dresses (post weight gain of course, I wouldn't have bought them if thats what they looked like at first lol). They all fit soooo much better now! A few bunch up or puff out in the midsection but that is mainly due to my hips. My stomach has gone down considerably from what I remember from a few months ago. I should have taken pics but I was so disgusted with myself that I wouldn't have been able to take the pics, let alone keep them. So what I did was put on one of the dresses and compare it to a pic someone had of my in it from my housewarming party, just to be sure that it looked different and better on me now than it did before (this was a dress I bought after the weight gain because i needed something to wear and nothing I had fit correctly). BIG BIG Difference. How it looks was most likely the way it was meant to fit. It just didn't look at tight or constricting on me now. So excited about that though. Next came the jeans. All of my jeans don't fit yet, but of the few from before that pulled up and buttoned up but were still a bit too tight to wear out, 2 of them now fit well enough to add back to my wardrobe. A few jeans are getting close, and the rest aren't too far behind them.
I'm going to have to start doing some leg work either at home or at the gym. I think that if I could just tighten up my thighs and ass, I'd be able to wear the jeans with no problems. Still have a little ways to go until I meet my goal, but it is really rewarding and refreshing to be able to see and feel the results. Pat on the back for me. :)
Let me just start off by saying that this day sucks donkey balls. Only apples all day. Don't get me wrong, I like apples...but all day? Not a fan. I was so hungry. It was literally like eating a bag of appley water. I wish I had an apple tree right now so I could just keep eating them. But they have to be fresh, granny smith, crisp, and have no bruises. But on to the real news.
We had a mock PRT at FEP today. Weigh in, pushups/sit-ups, and run. So this morning I weighed 166, the same weight I've been for the past 4 days or so. At PT, about 1:30, I weight 165. You're usually at your lightest in the morning, so judging by that tomorrow I should weigh less. Hopefully anyways. So even though 165 is an accomplishment and the trainer noticed that I was considerabley less than last weigh in, it is still not withing standards so I had to be taped. My last taping had me at 12.5 in neck, 33 in waist, and 45 in hips. And after navy calculations, comes to 42% body fat. Today I measured at 13 in neck (he rounded up for me this time.), 30 in waist, and 44 in hips. Totaling 36% body fat. Standards for body fat for my height is max 32% so I'm still off, but only by 4% which translates into 4 in. I'm still technically not within standards but I still have 2 weeks to get there, and the results are coming. Dropping inches is harder for me than the weight so I was very very pleased to see some progress there. And while I like my butt and don't want it to go away, I do want the remaining 4 inches to come off my hips. And maybe 2 or 3 from my waist area. I am getting closer and closer to my goal. And while I would prefer not to have to be taped, it would be nice to know that in the event that the weigh-in didn't come up correctly that I'll be able to tape. Or that even though I'm withing standards weight wise, by body fat percentage is where it should be too.
So after the gym I came home and showered. So for shits and giggles, I weighed myself again, 164 this time. I'm very anxious to see what my morning total will be. After that I was feeling pretty good about myself, and needed to find something to wear to this interview tomorrow, so i decided to try on some of my dresses and jeans. I usually experience a lot of anxiety and frustration when trying to find something to wear, but not today. I was a bit nervous about the dresses though. Because of their cuts and my size, whenever I would put them on they sort of looked like maternity dresses (post weight gain of course, I wouldn't have bought them if thats what they looked like at first lol). They all fit soooo much better now! A few bunch up or puff out in the midsection but that is mainly due to my hips. My stomach has gone down considerably from what I remember from a few months ago. I should have taken pics but I was so disgusted with myself that I wouldn't have been able to take the pics, let alone keep them. So what I did was put on one of the dresses and compare it to a pic someone had of my in it from my housewarming party, just to be sure that it looked different and better on me now than it did before (this was a dress I bought after the weight gain because i needed something to wear and nothing I had fit correctly). BIG BIG Difference. How it looks was most likely the way it was meant to fit. It just didn't look at tight or constricting on me now. So excited about that though. Next came the jeans. All of my jeans don't fit yet, but of the few from before that pulled up and buttoned up but were still a bit too tight to wear out, 2 of them now fit well enough to add back to my wardrobe. A few jeans are getting close, and the rest aren't too far behind them.
I'm going to have to start doing some leg work either at home or at the gym. I think that if I could just tighten up my thighs and ass, I'd be able to wear the jeans with no problems. Still have a little ways to go until I meet my goal, but it is really rewarding and refreshing to be able to see and feel the results. Pat on the back for me. :)
Monday, October 11, 2010
Day 19: Think happy thoughts.
All Day Long: Grilled or boiled meat or chicken (no fat), any quantity and time with boiled or steamed veggies.
Today i was glad to be able to have a little variety. I had some beef and some chicken with broccoli. Still not too hungry but I still got to eat. I haven't had a craving lately either which is pretty good. I'm hoping to be able to keep that up. The cravings are what kills me. I hate thinking about food. Makes me feel fat. But no delicious thoughts. I'm still staying focused. I have been at the same weight for about a week now which is a bit discouraging but I have to hope that one day soon I'll see a change. Trying to remain positive is probably the hardest. But I have a really good support system, which is important.
Sorry there isn't much to write today. But there just isn't much to report. I'm sort of in a mid-diet slump. Tomorrow should be interesting though. Apples. All day. Only Apples. For 2 days. Can't wait to see how that goes...until then, good night America, well the people in America that actually read this anyways ;)
Today i was glad to be able to have a little variety. I had some beef and some chicken with broccoli. Still not too hungry but I still got to eat. I haven't had a craving lately either which is pretty good. I'm hoping to be able to keep that up. The cravings are what kills me. I hate thinking about food. Makes me feel fat. But no delicious thoughts. I'm still staying focused. I have been at the same weight for about a week now which is a bit discouraging but I have to hope that one day soon I'll see a change. Trying to remain positive is probably the hardest. But I have a really good support system, which is important.
Sorry there isn't much to write today. But there just isn't much to report. I'm sort of in a mid-diet slump. Tomorrow should be interesting though. Apples. All day. Only Apples. For 2 days. Can't wait to see how that goes...until then, good night America, well the people in America that actually read this anyways ;)
Day 18: Chicken of the sea, so is this chicken or tuna???
All Day Long: Grilled or boiled fish or shrimp, at any time, any quantity, with lettuce.
So today is the first day with meat in a while. Feels like forever. And of course it has to be fish. I don't like fish. I'm not much of a seafood person. So my only option is tuna. Its just about the only kind of seafood I'll eat. Whenever I eat salads I usually put a can of tuna in it so it wasn't like I was put out by having to eat the tuna with lettuce. Its actually really good, you should try it. Its a lot easier than a chicken salad because you have to cook the chicken first, you can use the tuna straight out of the can.
This was another day where I wasn't too hungry so i didn't get burnt out on eating tuna and lettuce all day. Still no change in weight to report, but i know it will come.
So today is the first day with meat in a while. Feels like forever. And of course it has to be fish. I don't like fish. I'm not much of a seafood person. So my only option is tuna. Its just about the only kind of seafood I'll eat. Whenever I eat salads I usually put a can of tuna in it so it wasn't like I was put out by having to eat the tuna with lettuce. Its actually really good, you should try it. Its a lot easier than a chicken salad because you have to cook the chicken first, you can use the tuna straight out of the can.
This was another day where I wasn't too hungry so i didn't get burnt out on eating tuna and lettuce all day. Still no change in weight to report, but i know it will come.
Sunday, October 10, 2010
Day 17: Fat pants are still fat but the ass that goes in them isn't
All Day Long: Any kind of previously mentioned fruits, boiled or steamed veggies, and green salad; any quantity and at any time.
I didn't really eat much today. I just wasn't very hungry again. Had 2 salads, some baby oranges, and some granny smiths. I can't wait until I can have some sort of meat though! I am craving a giant steak right about now lol.
On a brighter, non food related note. I have this pair of fat pants. I got them at pacsun, and they were pretty much the only pair of pants there that day that would fit me. They have holes in them (by design lol) and because they were fat pants the holes would get gradually bigger with each wear. I needed to run to the store so I put them on. And they were pretty big! I used to not have any stretching room in the waist, and now when I pull on the waist, there is a good 2-3 inches between my belly and the band. And the holes in the pants look like they are supposed to be there instead of looking like my legs are trying desperately to escape. Its funny how you don't really realize how big you are until you aren't any more. Its only a matter of time until I am back into my regular clothes and even buying smaller sizes. Also, my zip up hoodies that I had to stop zipping up, zip up and fit almost as well as they did when I first bought them. I am noticing a very positive change in my body. And so are the people around me. Especially at work. I had to buy a Medium/Short uniform because the Small/Short I originally had just didn't fit appropriately any more. I didn't want to be that chick walking around in a too small uniform and refusing to admit that I need a bigger size. But now, the medium has much more space than it once did. I haven't attempted to try the small back on, but maybe I will in the next few days. Its one thing to lose weight, but the real test comes when you try on the old clothes and are able to fit in them again.
I've been feeling a lot better about myself lately and that is a pretty big thing for me. At my previous weight of 155 I wasn't completely comfortable because I felt like I still needed to be smaller, but now I have a new found appreciation for the size I was. Gaining all this weight and going through everything I've been through really put a lot of things into perspective for me. I realize that many of the body issues I've had for so long were just ridiculous, and once I reach my goal, I'm almost positive I won't have to deal with those again.
I did this when I first started this blog, but I feel the need to do this again. I would really like to thank my friends and family for all of their support and encouraging words. I have a lot of pride and don't often ask for help, but this has been very emotionally and physically trying and I know I wouldn't have been able to go through any of this alone.
I didn't really eat much today. I just wasn't very hungry again. Had 2 salads, some baby oranges, and some granny smiths. I can't wait until I can have some sort of meat though! I am craving a giant steak right about now lol.
On a brighter, non food related note. I have this pair of fat pants. I got them at pacsun, and they were pretty much the only pair of pants there that day that would fit me. They have holes in them (by design lol) and because they were fat pants the holes would get gradually bigger with each wear. I needed to run to the store so I put them on. And they were pretty big! I used to not have any stretching room in the waist, and now when I pull on the waist, there is a good 2-3 inches between my belly and the band. And the holes in the pants look like they are supposed to be there instead of looking like my legs are trying desperately to escape. Its funny how you don't really realize how big you are until you aren't any more. Its only a matter of time until I am back into my regular clothes and even buying smaller sizes. Also, my zip up hoodies that I had to stop zipping up, zip up and fit almost as well as they did when I first bought them. I am noticing a very positive change in my body. And so are the people around me. Especially at work. I had to buy a Medium/Short uniform because the Small/Short I originally had just didn't fit appropriately any more. I didn't want to be that chick walking around in a too small uniform and refusing to admit that I need a bigger size. But now, the medium has much more space than it once did. I haven't attempted to try the small back on, but maybe I will in the next few days. Its one thing to lose weight, but the real test comes when you try on the old clothes and are able to fit in them again.
I've been feeling a lot better about myself lately and that is a pretty big thing for me. At my previous weight of 155 I wasn't completely comfortable because I felt like I still needed to be smaller, but now I have a new found appreciation for the size I was. Gaining all this weight and going through everything I've been through really put a lot of things into perspective for me. I realize that many of the body issues I've had for so long were just ridiculous, and once I reach my goal, I'm almost positive I won't have to deal with those again.
I did this when I first started this blog, but I feel the need to do this again. I would really like to thank my friends and family for all of their support and encouraging words. I have a lot of pride and don't often ask for help, but this has been very emotionally and physically trying and I know I wouldn't have been able to go through any of this alone.
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